Mom slept all day. Not even waking to take the Lorazepam that she's been taking every 2 hours or so. When I got home from choir practice tonight, she was awake & struggling to talk to Aunt Janette & I. I convinced her to drink a little bit of a strawberry ensure (which she DESPISES, but appeases me by taking a few sips now & then)
Once again, it acted like a wonder drug (which we assume is because it brings her blood sugar up) & she suddenly became coherent. She told us that she loved us and that she appreciated us sitting with her all the time.
My dad walked & I asked her who it was. She said "I don't know, but he sure has big ears!" Ok, so she wasn't *completely* coherent...
She then reached her hand up to my face and started to cry. She said "I want to see Mama." Through tears, I told her I understood & that it was ok. She also asked a couple of times about Frances (her younger sister that died several years ago) wondering if she was here.
All the literature that Hospice has provided tells us that those that are in the end stages of life often seek permission to die... I feel that's what she was doing tonight. I told her we will be fine & asked her to hug Grandma, Aunt Fran and my 2 sisters for us when she sees them...
I believe it won't be long before she has her wish....
4 comments:
Wow, I'm crying of course. It is so wonderful knowing the end is NOT the end at all and we will indeed see our loved ones again. Praise the Lord! I'm so glad you have this blog and are sharing these moments. I love you all!
As painful as these days are... you will forever cherish them. Love and hug and kiss and sing and pray and then do it all over again. Love & prayers, Bev
When I sat with my mom the last hours of her life.. unfortunately, I did not get to speak to her due to all the morphine that she'd had prior to my getting to the hospital. The nurse attending to her said that people often want to stay with their loved ones and don't want to go, and sometimes must be told it's okay - like you said, given "permission" - my mom hung on for 5 hrs.. until my brother and I told her she could go.. and within 30 seconds, she left this Earth...
I didn't realize that your dad had such big ears! Never noticed I guess! haha! Well, I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you all and that God, in His perfect timing, will take her home to see her Mama! I love you, Nita!
Julie M.
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